Jeong Mari’s BTS Blog 💜

How BTS Helped Me Find My Light Again

Posted on: May 20, 2025 | Tags: #Healing #MyJourney #BTSComfort

There was a time I felt like I was disappearing - not physically, but inside. The world had become gray. I had been surrounded by toxic people, burdened by expectations, and quietly carrying pain I didn't know how to name. My light, the spark that used to make me feel joyful and seen, had dimmed. I started believing that maybe it was gone for good.

And then... I heard a song. I didn't know the group, the members, the meaning. All I knew was that something inside me reacted like it had finally been seen. That song was “seven”. And that was the member Jeon Jeongguk.

It was like my heart whispered, “This is something different. This is safe" From that day, something in me started to heal. Not because BTS fixed me, but because they made me remember that there was something *worth healing for.*

“They never broke me — but they helped me heal what others tried to.”

Being ARMY for the past two years has given me community, color, laughter, tears, and above all: clarity. Their music, their messages, their vulnerability — it all reminded me that I wasn’t broken. I was just hidden, waiting to bloom again.

Now, I create with love. I design with color. I speak with the spark that came back to me. BTS didn’t just change my playlist — they helped me find a version of myself I thought I had lost. The real me. The soft, strong, emotional, magical me.

To anyone reading this who feels like they’ve dimmed... your light isn’t gone. It’s just waiting for the right song, the right lyric, the right moment to shine again.

Thank you BTS. For not even knowing you were saving lives... and doing it anyway.

🎧 My Comfort Songs

Posted on: May 28, 2025 | Tags: #BTSPlaylist #ComfortSongs #Healing

Sometimes the world is loud, heavy, and too fast. And when that happens, I press play on the songs that make everything slow down *or* speed me back up. The songs that fight for me when I feel like I can’t fight for myself. These are my comfort songs — the ones that lift me off the floor and remind me who I am:

• 🕯️ “00:00 (Zero O’Clock)” — For the nights I need to believe tomorrow is a fresh start.
• 💜 “Magic Shop” — Because they built a place inside their music where I can breathe again.
• 🔥 “Dope” — When I need a reminder that I’m unstoppable, even when others don’t see it.
• 💥 “Mic Drop” — For every time I was doubted, dismissed, or overlooked. This is my anthem.
• 🧠 “ON” — When I feel like giving up, this song says: “Bring the pain. I’ll rise anyway.”
• 💣 “Run BTS” — Because no one can run through chaos like BTS — and I’m running with them.
• 🪞 “Still With You” — When I miss someone who may not even be gone, just distant.

These aren’t just songs to me. They’re battle cries, warm hugs, and late-night therapy. They’ve lifted me out of shadows, danced with me in my room, and reminded me I’m never alone.

“Even if I fall, I get back up right away. That's how I've always been.” — from Run BTS

To anyone who’s tired, burnt out, or starting to dim: put on one of these songs. Let the beat fight for you. Let the voices you trust remind you of your worth. You don’t need to be perfect. You just need to *press play.*

These songs didn’t just change my mood. They helped change my life.

🎉 FESTA 2025: 12 Years of BTS — and 1.5 Years of Me 💜

Posted on: June 1, 2025 | Tags: #FESTA2025 #ARMYReflection

Today, I want to celebrate something more than just a K-pop anniversary. I want to celebrate 12 years of BTS... and 1.5 years of me — the version of me that *they helped awaken.*

I became ARMY in one of the most emotionally confusing chapters of my life. I had been surrounded by toxicity, heartbreak, self-doubt, and shadows I didn’t know how to escape. I felt like I was losing myself, like I was fading — slowly, quietly, painfully.

Then I heard “7”. And I didn’t even know their names yet, but I felt something shift. It was like someone was holding my hand through the speaker saying, *“We see you.”* And since then... BTS has never stopped seeing me.

As I listened more — as I cried, healed, danced, and grew — I began to see pieces of myself in every single one of them:

• 🐨 RM – In his introspection and quiet strength when no one is watching.
• 🐹 Jin – In his laughter masking the pain and how he still chooses joy.
• 🐱 SUGA – In his unapologetic honesty, his battle with darkness, and his brilliance in expression.
• 🐿️ j-hope – In his bright light, his need to uplift others even when he feels heavy himself.
• 🐥 Jimin – In his gentleness, his empathy, his ability to hold love for everyone but forget himself.
• 🐯 V – In his artistic soul and the way he lets his emotions lead the way he sees the world.
• 🐰 Jungkook – In his quiet evolution, his softness mixed with strength, and how he keeps learning and growing even when afraid.

Through them, I’ve learned to forgive myself. To honor the parts of me that others tried to erase. To feel again. To *breathe again.*

“I’m standing at the edge of a cliff. I’m afraid, but if it’s with you, I’ll jump.” — BTS, Run

This FESTA, I celebrate not just their journey — but mine too. Because BTS didn’t just give me music. They gave me light, language, laughter, and love. They helped me rebuild what life had shattered.

And if I could tell them anything, I’d say this:

Thank you for helping me become stronger, better, wiser, happier, freer. Thank you for teaching me to live. 💜

🎖️ Welcome Home, Namjoon & Taehyung 💜

Posted on: June 10, 2025 | Tags: #WelcomeBack #RM #V #MilitaryDischarge

Today, we celebrate more than just a calendar date. On June 10th, 2025, Kim Namjoon and Kim Taehyung officially completed their 18-month military service, having served honorably in different units. And now, they come home — not only as soldiers, but as leaders, artists, and symbols of strength reborn.

Watching Namjoon enter the military as our calm, introspective leader and come out even more grounded makes me emotional. His words have always been a compass, and I know he took every moment in uniform with reflection, pride, and humility. He carries the soul of BTS on his shoulders, and now he returns with even more wisdom written into his story.

Taehyung, with his fierce loyalty and tender spirit, served in his own unique way — quietly, strongly. I think of all the emotions he hides behind that deep gaze and soft smile. Serving in a unit that likely challenged him physically and emotionally, he comes home with more stories, more depth, and a heart that's always felt like art itself.

“The day will come when the flowers bloom again.” — BTS, Spring Day

It’s surreal to realize we are now standing at the threshold of their return — the moment we’ve all been waiting for, imagining, praying for. As an ARMY for over a year and a half now, this isn’t just the end of their enlistment... it’s the beginning of a new chapter in our journey *together.*

They left not knowing exactly how the world would change, and now they come back to a world that held its breath. And through it all, their presence was never gone — it was just resting, preparing for something even greater.

Namjoon and Taehyung — welcome home. You were missed more than words can express. Thank you for serving, for growing, for returning. We love you endlessly. 💜

🐥🐰 The Golden Boys Are Home

Posted on: June 11, 2025 | Tags: #Jimin #Jungkook #Discharge

The stars aligned again, and the sky glows purple — Jimin and Jungkook have officially completed their military service. On June 11, 2025, the youngest members of BTS walked free, not just as soldiers, but as men who have grown, healed, and returned to the arms of ARMY. 💜

Watching them reunite, with smiles that could melt steel and eyes full of emotion, felt like something sacred. It wasn’t just a comeback — it was *a return to wholeness*. Their embrace, their energy, their light… it’s like everything is real again. We are seven.

“The wait was long, but it was filled with love. Thank you for waiting.” — Jimin 🐥

“Let’s dream even bigger now. I missed you.” — Jungkook 🐰